The end is only a new beginning..

So this weekend was pretty crazy.. dealt with a lot of crap from the person i loved the most and now here i am all alone but more than ready to continue my life and find myself once again... cuz yes i totally did lose myself.. i guess we get so caught up on pleasing others and we forget that the most important person to us should be ourselves... i forgot to smile because i really meant it.. but i don't want to lose that ever again.. i want to smile because i really am happy.. my heart is simply broken right now but i guess there really isnt anything that time and God cant heal.. i am putting all my trust in him and of course thanks to some friends i will definitely be able to move past this tough moment of my life and i will be okay.. tomorrow is another day and i cant wait to see what it brings.. God is wonderful and even though many time i guess i totally forget that he has it all under control, the wonderful thing is that he doesnt forget about me... thats where my true happiness lies.. in God!...

first blog! not a good morning!!

this is my first blog ever. i normally like to write my thoughts down sometimes i actually come out with good stuff.. but today i decided to join the blogging family. and i think ill be good at it.. jsut gotta keep up.. not sure what i should write.. but ill figure it out.. i guess i shold start off by saying this morning was a very tough morning.. i dealt with too many things at once.. i was about to find myself in a world of chaos all alone. it was a scary moment. but luckily somehow someone had mercy on me.. not too sure what to say about that one.. ummmm sometimes i think whats the purpose of fighting for something so much if at some point its all meaningless.. i mean who ever really wins and gets everything they want.. havent met that person yet!.. i guess we are meant for greater things and meant to have that peace and happiness but why fight for it. i mean youde think we do enough good to deserve it.. but i guess thats just it.. everything is never enough! i guess just gotta deal with that.. i want to turn this around.. anyway ill check in later!!.. ummm bye i guess!